Day 4...bagged

Writer: Aaron
What I'm listening to right now: Nothing
What I'm watching out of the corner of my eye: My beautiful Jessica (she is unaware of my staring ;P)

Day 4 people...DAY 4!

So. 4 days seems like a marginal victory. For the first time since starting this thing I'm feeling a TEENY bit like it was a good decision. This whole day was another test of will. I'm happy to say that I passed the test (With a huge portion of God's help). So on with the recap.

Today started with a SWF. The first SWF of this cleanse was less "shock and awe" and more "gurgle and fizzle"...but it was a successful flush none the less, so I won't complain. I think I will make tomorrow's more salty...I live for shock and awe :)

Today was also another lemonade day. I took my requisite "8 portions" of lemonade today...not more. I don't have ANY idea why, but this time around the lemonade is horrendous tasting. I slam it down every time I have to drink it. The bare minimum that I should drink a day is 8 - 8 oz portions...I drink 8...period...and a TON of water.

An interesting trend is emerging this time around. As I settle into the meat of the cleanse I'm realizing that I'm fine between meals...happy even. But about 1 hour before a normal mealtime I get very very hungry and very very very surly and irritated. This didn't happen last time around. I don't like it at all. I feel like I've been taken over. As far as I can figure this is a mental mechanism that my body is torturing me with to get me to eat. In this I'm starting to find solace. This is EXACTLY why I'm doing the cleanse: To overcome the little voice in my brain that tells me "hey dude (my little voice is from the early '90s) you're stressed...EAT! or hey man, you're bored...EAT!". So as tortured as I feel and as mad as I feel, I'm oddly encouraged. I'm in a battle royale with bad habits and a bad way of thinking and, so far, I'm coming out on top.

So, the only thing left to do tonight is drink my herbal tea and hit the sack...looking forward to that. Day 5 looms...but not as bad as day 4 did :)

PS. To my loyal contingent of wonderful and super good looking Canadian women: Sincere apologies for missing a day. To be honest, it was good that I didn't post on day 2...because it wouldn't have been very nice :)

A.

What I'm listening to this second: Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap